Regret?

Time will tell a lot of things about people. I myself have learned a lot about myself through the past 18 years of my life. Likes, dislikes, talents and faults I have them just as much as the next guy.

I'm getting ready to serve a two year mission. Two years away from the world, life, and the garbage that infests this planet. My focus will be to serve Heavenly Father with all my might mind and strength.

Anyway, I was reading a note by a "friend" (or so I thought) the other day and I somewhat upset me. Shear disgust and lost of trust really. He often told me that he wanted to stay friends for a long time after graduation. Well, guess what, I guess a long time is only a few months.

When I made the decision to come out to BYU, I made it for myself. Not my parents, my friends...no, I wanted it. I wanted to be at a place where I belonged. I guess that means I have to sacrifice relationships I wished to keep.

I have found that, through my time out here, there have been a very select group of high school friends that have really supported me and my decision. I respect that a lot. I respect that on days where my life felt like crap and I was so overwhelmed I did not think I could go on, they were there.

To those who claim to be a friend, bloody show it. I'm not going to wait up just so you can try and hang on to a world that no longer exists. I understand it is hard to leave those you care about and you enjoy to hang out with, but it is time to grow out of high school. Time to grow out of immaturity. Time to face the world with determination and courage. Time to move on with life.

One last thing, if you think it is hard to move on and start a new life, try being forced to do it. Do not get me wrong I will still be there through your trials and hardship as it always has been in the past. However, I will not tolerate cancers. If push comes to shove, well..use your heads and figure it out. If you know me so well it should not be that hard.

I have learned to adapt. How about you?